It all began, they say, with the Biblical Noah’s son, Shem, who spoke a Semitic language, and who’s progeny lived in the Levant, Mesopotamia, the Arabian Peninsula and the Horn of Africa. This includes us, Palestinians. In fact, a DNA study of Jews and Palestinian Arabs (according to Wikipedia) found that we were closely related. I truly believe that. However, I also believe that due to that entire region being ravished throughout the millennia by all sorts of invaders and occupiers to whom raping women was considered a war trophy, there must be very few Pure Semites left. Is there a DNA test that can rule definitively on this?

My mother and her sisters had green or blue eyes, their hair was reddish brown, or blondish, their skin was lily-white. In fact, I used to tease my mother: so now which one of your great-great-great grandmothers was raped, or willingly succumbed to one of those blonde Crusaders? The truth is that while it could have been a crusading knight, it could also have been one of the many Greek, Russian or other light-skinned pilgrims and migrants who always converged, and often settled, in Jerusalem and her surroundings. We, originally Pagan, Jewish, Christian and/or Muslim women, who are the descendants of Shem, having been targets of violence throughout the centuries, may very well have non-Semitic blood waltzing through our veins.

All this brings me to the issue of Semitism and anti-Semitism. I am anti Israeli Government policies that pertain to the Palestinian, Middle Eastern and Arab people. I am not anti Israeli people, or anti Jewish people, or an anti-Semite. How can I be an anti-Semite when I am possibly a Semite too? And, yes, I have said very harsh words about Bibi and Israeli Government policies throughout time, and I stand by them. I am also against the symbiosis that is going on between the British/American politics/evangelical extremist Christianity and radical Zionism and how that has muddied the political waters of the Middle East.

Throughout time, extremist religious figures have used corrupt politicians to advance their agendas, and vice versa. The result has been numerous wars with otherwise reasonable people getting mired in the inflammatory hype, as well as the bloodshed and hatred that have engulfed us human beings for centuries. How senselessly unnecessary!

One of our myriad problems is that the world has been conflicting anti-Semitism with anti Israeli. They are not necessarily one and the same. We have all been reading about how there is a rise in race attacks directed at Jews all over Europe, as well as some here in the US. These attacks have flared up now and then and throughout history, and they were mainly in Europe where, as an example, an Englishmen, Oswald Mosley, as far back as 1930, ranted about “the organized corruption of press, cinema and Parliament” which he blamed on Jews. There were also many others such as him. And then, of course, we have the infamous Hitler who touted the Aryan race and oversaw one of the most horrific crimes in history: the genocide on the Jewish people. In fact, anti-Jewish seems to be an old and, yes, anti-Semitic tradition of Christian Europe. And so is anti-Muslim, which has been another anti-Semitic European tradition going back to the Crusades.

Recently, in Germany, a Syrian refugee attacked and killed an Israeli man wearing a kippah. That Syrian fellow most probably killed because he was angry, frustrated, had probably lost some family members, was uprooted, penniless, maybe radicalized, and now found himself in an alien culture for which he, as many, many people from the Middle East region blame Israel. Most of us from that territory know beyond a doubt that Israel’s policies were one of the prime instigators for all the devastation that has – and still is – occurring over there. That Syrian is not the only angry man. However, he, too, same as an increasing number of anti-Israeli Europeans, might ignorantly and wrongfully conflict being anti-Israeli with being anti Jewish.

This was not the case with President Mahmood Abbas of Palestine when he said something to the effect that Jewish bankers/financiers are what caused the Holocaust and other massacres. He is very well aware, after all, that Jews did not bring the genocide upon themselves. It was not the first time he had said things like that. Abbas apologized on Friday, May 4, as well he should have. I know that he is definitely frustrated and very angry at Israeli Government behavior regarding the Palestinians especially. Most of us are! However, as the head of a state, his words were wrong. Very wrong. He can voice his anger at the Israeli Government, at its Cabinet, at Bibi. He can say that they are criminals, child-killers, murderers, assassins, or whatever. But, he cannot slur the entire Jewish people. That’s not acceptable.

I am fully aware that worse religious slurs and discriminating adjectives have been bandied about the Palestinian people whether they came from Netanyahu, or his cabinet ministers, or some of the settlers. Moreover, the atrocities being manifested by the Israeli Government in Gaza and the Middle East are criminal, to say the least. However, they are not any justification for slurring the Jewish religion, or all Jews, because two wrongs do not make a right. Plain and simple!

Having said all that, my reasoning and logic are in tandem with my humongous emotions, for I don’t remember having as heavy or dejected a heart as I do today (except for the first few years of the Lebanese Civil War which began in 1975, and which ensured the continuation of the conspiracy to destroy every country bordering Israel). The memories of today, the Day of the Palestinian Nakba in 1948, are fraught with images of my grandparents and parents who never, ever coped with their tragic sense of loss and grief after leaving Palestine. It is that deep sense of loss, utter helplessness, and unfettered humiliation that has fuelled the rage felt by generations of Palestinians, my self included. It is that same sense of loss and grief that overwhelmed me at the start of 1975 and which has continued unabated throughout the years since then as I view a devastated Middle East whose calamities are not yet over.

This brings me to Bibi Netanyahu who is no doubt an arch criminal, liar, propagandist and hypocrite. His recent spectacle regarding Iran that was given television coverage galore was disgusting to say the very least! And I am sure that the entire Middle East region’s blood pressure skyrocketed after listening to him! I know that mine did! However, and as we all know by now, he wasn’t acting out this drama for the Israeli people, Iran, or the entire region. He was aiming it at one person: Donald Trump, and the obvious reason for sending this abysmal message through the ether was because he thinks that the American President is a gullible sap whom he can bend to his will, and he, together with all those who love war in the US establishment, proved to be right, because as soon as Trump’s puppet strings were yanked by that Master of Deceit, the Israeli Government felt that it had received the green light to rampage and destroy more of that miserable region then they have so far with no restraints whatsoever!

It is unjust, shameful, and a total abuse of power and of every religious, legal and social agreement amongst decent and civilized human beings. It is tragic! Indeed, that is why I have such a sad and heavy heart today, the Day of our Nakba and the beginning of the total destruction of the Middle East and its people by some of the same progeny of that Shem who, it is said, fathered us all. What a dismal legacy that is!



Saturday, April 14 – April 21: Sometimes I wish I was the hamster, with nothing to worry about except whether it’s going to be lettuce, apple, or egg for lunch. No raging, tumultuous thoughts and horrible events taking me here, there and everywhere just in the span of one week! Such as waking up after a restful night of sleep, dreading the blasted TV. What now? Oh! The missiles flew over Syria last night! It seems that Trump had to go through with his threat, evil as it was. Wicked Theresa-May is flexing her miserable cahunas. But, Macron? Quite an Espece de Cochon that one! I thought that together with Merkel they would stand up against the US/UK/Israel aggression?!! Now what? I did not like the sound of that “Mission Accomplished.” It wasn’t the end of an event for Dubya, but only the grim beginning of a criminal and senseless war. Are we following that sordid script again? I heard Brian Williams say that our weapons are “beautiful?” Since when do we call lethal instruments “beautiful?” Pretty disgusting! And that rogue Cowgirl Nikki saying that our weapons are “locked and loaded?” The tragedy and insanity of what’s going on overwhelms me! We sold enough of those lethal “beautiful” weapons to the young, naïve Prince Salman. Now that he’s finished destroying Yemen, where will he be directed to aim those weapons? Why do I have the nagging feeling that the next proxy war might be on Iran, plotted, choreographed and supported by Trump and Bibi? In their sinister thinking they might be saying that perhaps it is much better, propaganda wise, to have our puppets go at it and have the anger and hatred directed at them, rather than at us. Such sinister conniving! Isn’t this obvious to His Highness, the Prince? That he’s going be used, and then spat out like a date pit into his desert just like all the other penniless and abased Arab “allies” before him? Distressing!

. . . Nevertheless, my life goes on, as all our lives must, in spite and despite of the outrageous events. Went with my daughter to pay a condolence visit to a friend who’s husband just passed away. Over coffee, we reminisced about our lives, she having been married for fifty-one years, and I for fifty when my husband passed away. Memories that brought a bit of laughter, a bit of wistfulness.

. . . I watched a very interesting interview on C-Span with Trey Gowdy and Tim Scott about their book: Unified. Coming from one black, one white guy, both from the South, it talks about how to unify our polarized country. I wish!

. . . “Things to Come,” is a French-German 2016 production about a philosophy teacher, comfortable, successful, married for twenty-five years, two children and how one day her husband informs her that he is moving out as he has fallen in love with another woman. Talk about your world come crashing around you! And, while trying to deal with all this, her mother passes away. An emotional, philosophical and beautifully made film that offers a deeper, more nuanced, mature and subtle approach to life than the regular Hollywood fare.

. . . I had a doctor’s appointment to follow up on my annual blood test results – the only tests I do at this stage. The Doctor informed me that my cholesterol is getting up there and maybe I should consider a medication. I looked at her funny and she smiled! She knows my philosophy on this. At this age, pills can mess me up more than letting nature take its course, so what for? I’m no spring chicken, yo! When it’s time to go, it’s time to go, hopefully in as elegantly an exit as possible.

. . . Comey’s interview is all over every media outlet. What a prick! He should have kept his mouth shut and behaved with more dignity, however, finks and whores are now the 24/7 contemptuous subjects of our corrupt and superficial MSM! No integrity whatsoever!

. . . Hamster had a small piece of apple. He clutched it the minute I put it through the cage slats like his life depended on it! So cute!

. . . Finished reading a short book: The Stranger in the Woods by Michael Finkel. What a treasure! I learned a lot about the numerous present day hermits and survival skills. Never knew!

. . . At the gym they were running a test of the alert system. Okay. But how does one know what they’re alerting us about when the audio is so terrible? Just as it is on our Metro. No one paid attention, anyway! How hard is it to get a proper audio system going? Alert siren went on again a few minutes later, we walkers looked at each other and ultimately realized that they were testing again. And then it went on again, more urgent, and we heard them – barely! – saying that there was a fire in one corner of the building and that we should evacuate immediately. I looked around and no one was evacuating! Cry wolf, I guess! The company that is in charge of this building’s security should be fired. Hell, what if this was for real?!!

. . . Barbara Bush passed away. RIP. She really was a steadfast and traditional woman in every sense of the word. I think we all liked her and her amusing witticisms, and I believe that it was she who once said that if you’re an ordinary person (my words) and say something really smart no one pays any attention, but when you become First Lady, every word, non-consequential as it may be, becomes quotable! I’m not fond of the Bush family, though, nor of the damage and agony that the Sr. Bush and his son have caused to the Middle East. However, Randa Jarrar, a young Palestinian woman has been tweeting (I don’t do Twitter) some very nasty things about Mrs. Bush, her husband and son. She created quite a brouhaha on social media. It was unnecessary, especially at this particular juncture. I am an angry Palestinian also, and I use the F word liberally, but there is a time and a place for everything in life.

. . . With Spring finally popping its head shyly around the corner, my agenda for next week has filled up with a book club meeting, two lunches, a dinner and a BBQ. Ah, Spring, you get us all active again!

. . . A friend is distraught over a phone call she received claiming it was the IRS and that she had to send out a payment immediately, or else! There are so many evil and wicked people out there, and still I hear that some of my friends pick up that damn phone when it rings without checking the caller ID. Don’t they know the traps yet? I don’t pick up unless the caller ID indicates a familiar name, otherwise there’s an answering machine. I wanted to record a message on it that says: if you’re a telemarketer/scammer fuck off. I didn’t, though. Not yet anyway. Maybe one day when I’m mad enough . . . I also click on the Delete button and Trash every solicitation on my computer. Immediately. I don’t read, open or click on any of them. No one should.

Hamster was busy giving himself a bath. He totally ignored me!

. . . So the Queen of England anointed her son, Prince Charles, to take over the helm of the Kingdom and the Commonwealth after she retires. Isn’t “Commonwealth” the best explanation for why Colonialism exists? To suck up the wealth of all the planet for a Colonialism that has never ended. Makes me totally cringe!

. . . Weekend viewing: a repeat of J Street’s Annual Conference and 10th. Year Anniversary celebration on C-Span (I love that station). It was quite impressive. The speech by Husam Zomlot, Head of the PLO Delegation to the US was one of the most balanced and honest speeches by a Palestinian that I had heard in quite a while. Inspiring speeches on the one hand, and the Israeli Government still shooting at unarmed, peaceful protestors on the Gaza border on the other hand. Who will prevail? Doves, or Hawks? So far, it’s been the Hawks. I’m afraid that this will continue. Aries is dominating Irene!

. . . Enjoyed an energizing two-mile walk at the end of the week after which I stopped at the grocery store and bought parsley and onions to garnish the foul mdammas that I am making for the family tomorrow morning. Yum! In the afternoon and evening I was babysitting my very precious granddaughter. We had so much fun. We played with the hamster who just loves the attention she gives him, and then we sat down for a game of Snafu, which has her laughing from the bottom of her beautiful heart as I never manage to get all the steps right and always lose! These are the treasured moments of life that make it worthwhile and that manage to distract me from all the crazy, sad, unjust and boiling cauldron that is our world today, a world that is sorely in need of a long vacation from wars, conspiracies, terrorism and . . . corrupt politicians!

On May 15, Palestinians will mourn and relive The Nakba, our Catastrophe. It is as much of a stigma on the world as is the Holocaust. But while Germany, and the Western World have gone to inordinate efforts to surmount that tragedy, neither the majority of Jews, Israelis or the Western World have made one tenth of that effort for the Palestinian people. To the contrary. Pretty dismal and utterly unjust!